Til Everyone Is Singing.....

SIX DAYS.
SAME FUCKING SCHEDULE AS LAST WEEK.

I don't even think I'll go out tonight.
fuck it.


by the way, I am apparently devoid of any kind of affection.

hmmm....


as Kristi put it "are you gonna be my top bitch or my bottom bitch?"
lmao <3



so I figure tonight, I'm gonna take a stab at this tonight
I already have the feeling that I know the answer
and that the answer is not going to be what I want it to be...

But I really am done playing games.

damn...

I'm pms-ing hardcore. oh well.

I can't really put this off for too much longer



Yeah you want it but I can't help it
I just feel complete when you're by my side
But I know you can't come home 'til they're singing

Sleep Is Overrated.

so I've made it through most of the week.
it's now friday.
so, so far i've worked about hmm...22 hours? just about
then I've got 6 hours today tomorrow and sunday a full on 8 hours.
god bless the superbowl -___________-


and now I'm in brooklyn.

NO SLEEP the next two days

so tonight after work I'm supposed to be going to see chris
and stay with him @ blockbuster until 1 am...then hang out all night -_______-

THEN
tomorrow night AFTER WORK
straight to Astoria with Chris to meet up with Tanya and Jen
to get drunk off my ass (:


oh well. that's what these are for

Whatever It Takes...

sticking to old habits I see Bianca...
still not sleeping
well I'm going to have to start being that I am scheduled to work EVERYFUCKINGDAYTHISWEEK
THIRTY EIGHT HOURS.
the only day off I have is MONDAY.


MONDAY?!

WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO ON A MONDAY BRO?!

fuck.
If I don't start sleeping I am going to get sick and be completely and totally wiped the fuck out on some real shit.
I'm gonna go buy sleeping pills and Emergen-C tomorrow @ my fave store of all time Duane Reade ♥

try and boost this shit up.

so tomorrow (or later today rather) I'm going to get up at noon, order chinese food and write a song about apathy.
Yes I plan on starting and finishing an entire song before I have to be at work @ 5pm tomorrow
and I seriously seriously hope I do it....
wish me luck.

now it's 431am, and I'm going to watch Degrassi until 5 at least...love this show.
then hopefully I will pass out.



GOD WILLING I will have some fucking chill time this week. Mother leaves on saturday the 31st :D

"Whatever it takes,
I know I can make it through"

hahahaha <3333


good night loves.

restart.

so tomorrow is brunch with tanya :D

next week my mom leaves. thank the lord.
my room reeks of cigarette smoke it's actually kinda nasty
i'm gonna cut down
there is no point to me writing in this cause i'm bored to death with nothing to say really

anyways I'm going to try an experiment


so on some real shit, this computer needs to be taken in ASAP.
I can't deal with these random SHUTDOWNs anymore.

and I need to go down to Hunter College ASAP to see about applying.
I am NOT going another year without being in school I can't. Even if I have to take out loans
god willing I'll get a lot of Financial Aid...but we all know how that shit goes.


Ugh Friday is my only other day off and I reallllly need plans for Friday.
I'm not spending it like I spent last friday...bored and pissed the fuck off
and no platonic ass hugs either. fuck that shit.
that pissed me off. truth.

I'm not dealing with that anymore either.

So basically, I'm not procrastinating anymore...hopefully

That takes a LOT of self discipline which is something I've always had a really hard time with...oh well maybe that will change

oh my tattoo is done forgot to mention that...I'll have a pic of it later.

haven't showed mommy dearest yet...don't plan on it.

w/e this blog was kinda pointless.

i'm off this. and on to duane reade to eat wheat thins with hummus..lmao

bye.
<3

beautiful man

New Starts...

So it's 2009

and what have I done so far?

saving money :D
there's actually more than 30$ in my bank account...THANK GOD.

hmm so many changes upcoming in this year


but I'm kicking myself right now because I seem to have gotten myself stuck in a certain situation that I promised myself I wouldn't. hah.

so now I'm going to get myself out of it.


I just can't wait until the end of january. Soooo many things are going to happen. My mom is going away, and so is Tanya's...so PARTY

plus I'll have money, and a new guitar. and hopefully something else new too (:

it's hard not to get your hopes up, but it happens anyway

i'm going to look into buddhism because it's always interested me and I want to learn more about it


that's it for now. I just got in from the freeeeezing fucking cold
I was upset so I walked to 42nd street
walking clears my head.


beautiful.